Finally passing 10 day mark since the treatment. Some improvements but evening & night time is still not easy. I know what to do but I don’t have a courage to execute yet. I know someday I need to execute anyway for my survival. It is just fear preventing me. I don’t even know such day can come or not though.
Anway today’s another experiments. Tried new things – some worked, some didn’t. But, I am in process of finding paths. Paths to emotional stability. Whether it takes 100 days or 1000 days, I will fight till it’s gone. I need to believe in this faith otherwise I am just empty malfunctioning shell.
Time to play the healing playlist and take the pills.
Tomorrow hope to be not worse than today.
Just cannot wait till the doctor’s appointment on Monday.